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Broods, Angerfist, Life

 
Saw Broods again, couldn't understand a word they said but good to have a night out with a friend.

Saw Angerfist, loved it. Took a picture with him. Well he wears a mask so I assume he's a he. I also assume he was actually there and not some random local wearing an Angerfist mask. I'm joking of course!

I launched a music themed website, finally and probably will launch a few more in this area. I probably should just mainly focus on passion niches going forward. Knowing me I will probably just continue doing random shit but that's ok, something will pay off eventually. As long as I am slightly more focused on a few passion niches and getting stuff out there I will be happy.

The good thing about passion niches is you can do what you love as a business. I have always wanted to do concert reviews but unfortunately I do too many things so that hasn't happened yet but hopefully I can sort this eventually.

A problem with traveling for business is you have to take an assistant for a person like me. This adds up over time. Also considering airpoints, I could have gone on a free overseas trip already but of course I'm a cripple so I have to pay for two people. This also fucks me for conferences etc. So I have to do better at earning airpoints and do more to structure business around traveling.

I did get the eye tracking API working with my own accessibility software but I still have to assess how accurate it is and need to sort out a switching system first. Unfortunately I'm having issues.

Aside from that I'm working on something to semi automate Twitter usage and something to check statistics for multiple affiliate programs in one place. Nobody cares but this is my blog so I will write what I like.

I could write about this new guy I am seeing but I am happily single so can't do that. Normal people also talk about their offspring, don't have those and I am thankful, and I would probably make a disastrous dad. I get sick of people if I spend too much time with them. People post about their pets. I wanted a new dog but said to myself they cost money.

People regard me as cheap but really I just know how to hyper focus my spending on things that make me happy. I have to pay double for airfares anyway so yes I'm going to be even cheaper. Plus there's lost productivity since I operate the computer slowly. I need to get better about investing so money works for me. The same goes for websites, I really need to make them work for me better.
 
Posted at 05/06/2019 06:58:07 UTC 0 comments
 

Software and music projects

 
Currently frustrated, am coding too much, need to get more things up. Though have launched about 4 sites this year and have a few more coming up. I should have more fun which is not related to getting sites up, I am super busy and need to have more fun.

I deeply regret not using OpenCV for eye tracking development, I probably could have completed that years ago. I'll probably revisit it soon.

I badly need a new computer, but accessibility software sucks so I am forced to create my own. Hopefully that's nearly complete.

I acquired publishing rights to my books. I don't really have time to get that sorted but will anyway. I really wanted to delegate that income stream. On the bright side I'll have an additional asset.

I don't really do anything other than coding and web development. I wish that I could travel more, and go clubbing. Though I can't really be fucked going out, that's half the reason I quit comedy. So I need to connect clubbing to my business somehow. More on this in future blogs.

Comedy was a business, but I primarily liked writing the jokes. I liked performing at the time but I just couldn't get myself to want to do it constantly. I am too use to my own company. Interacting with people can be exhausting and going out can be burdensome if you'd rather spend time writing software. I don't really want to go to concerts nowadays. Though I can't find a decent gig in Auckland. I could have gone to Boyzone, but they suck. Shawn Mendes, I am sick of the screaming fans. I don't want to spend money on someone I've seen before, that rules out half of the music industry. I liked going to Auckland occasionally, but I haven't been motivated to do that recently.

I need a music role that would allow me to dip in and out whenever I want. I have something in mind but can't do it without massive capital.

On a positive note I am slowly phasing in music projects, but I need to create an income stream for these to build that capital. Hopefully this works out.

I have problems with people stealing my ideas, so I could be more reserved about what I give away.

So key focuses for the immediate future is getting self publishing sorted, getting one or two music sites going and fine tuning technology to have sites update at least semi automatically. Oh hopefully eye tracking with an API is a few weeks away!
 
Posted at 03/05/2019 05:33:39 UTC 0 comments
 

Wellington, Work, Running as a candidate

 
OK I haven't done this in a while. You're lucky I am blogging. I have shit to do.

Basically did nothing except went to Wellington last weekend. Fucking booking site didn't pass on the fact I needed an accessible room. Fucking incompetent. My flight home was late. Apparently it's perfectly acceptable to be late if you are in the medical, transport or aviation industry. I have shit to do!

I still haven't wound down programming at work. I may do that soon. I am not inspired to do programming anymore. I want to launch more websites. I am currently doing a site in a passion niche. I am probably going to create a game around the niche, but that would require more programming. Programming isn't really the problem, I am just uninspired to start new projects and like doing content sites. I think I can do a game. I started a game interface seven years ago but never completed it. I have a ton of things like this. I do need to do a map interface. That is going to be fucking long winded, created one before. Oh well, gives me something to work on in my spare time instead of being frustrated because I can't pick something to do.

I currently have two things I do in my spare time. (This is different from regular work time.) SEO research software and a another passion niche. I need to do less of the first because I am neglecting stuff I really want to do.

This doesn't contain much humour but whatever. Someone will only steal my jokes anyway!

Someone recently suggested I run as a candidate, again. People like to connect with people, I cannot talk. I don't see that happening. Also if there are debates I am fucked. I know that I am good, but it's probably impossible for me to create software that I can use to debate. Many people have suggested I run, some were probably being sarcastic. I also frankly like my job, yes I just finished bitching about how bored and uninspired I am. I have complete freedom to go anywhere I want, say anything I want. Especially considering I completely avoid attaching personal brands to businesses. In public life I would probably be asked to apologize every 5 minutes, and be asked to apologize again when I say fuck off I'm not apologizing. I am in the industries I want to be in all because I create sites for those industries. Granted I need to be better at making sites successful instead of constantly programming. Being in office sounds like a nightmare, I do need to improve my life, but that isn't how I would do it.
 
Posted at 04/04/2019 03:26:07 UTC 0 comments
 

Slash, Fatboy Slim, Lilly Allen, Auckland, The Prodigy, Conclusions

 
Fuck, I have been to so many concerts recently I am having trouble remembering them all.

First, Slash in Auckland. I didn't really want to go but the event with All Saints was cancelled and the flights and accommodation were already booked, the music was OK. The fucking accommodation was going to put us upstairs the first night so we stayed elsewhere the first night. I got back Monday.

Wednesday I went to Fatboy Slim. There was a particularly annoying blond woman trying to hold my hand all night. That's not the way I like to dance. Fuck off! The only way that I could stop her was shoving my hands in my back rest. Another blond was staring at me for some reason. Another woman said that she hoped someone was helping me, well she can fuck off too I am not fucking hopeless. And people wonder why I spend all day on a computer! Despite this it was one of the best concerts I have been to. They let me backstage when Fatboy Slim came on, which looking back has segregation issues but I was just hoping to meet Fatboy Slim, and I did. So that was fucking awesome. He tried to read my board but only got a few letters. Points for trying though. I was given a T shirt too. Excellent!

Friday I went to Auckland again.

I can't see me going to Auckland as much this year. I have been to 50 concerts, there's also nobody coming that I want to see. There's a few in Christchurch I am going to. I have got to go to Wellington twice this year which frankly is worse because I like cities with bigger populations. Wellington is just a hilly version of Christchurch. Some nice buildings though. I mainly go to Wellington because I am obligated to. I'll go to Auckland again when someone decent comes along. I am getting sick of being away from my main computer.

Saturday I went to Lilly Allen. I managed to get in the second row. It was a good view when people weren't in my way. Some guys additionally went in front of me for the last song however the woman beside me told them to go elsewhere. The first act looked like she was in an orange jump suit. Issue was a great concert!

Wednesday I saw The Prodigy, good music. Terrible venue! They fucking segregated me. I have been in hard rock mosh pits before so they can fuck off with their namby pamby conservative discriminatory crap. They restricted my access because I have a disability. Fuck them!

Saturday I went home.

Conclusion: If I want to dance in the crowd perhaps pop music is best. Although I don't really like being around screaming silly fans. Perhaps D&B/house/trance at clubs is a happy medium. I could be a DJ, but hate personal brands, I prefer to stay the background. My dream would be to manage a band and travel around with them. Alternatively own a club. Neither is something I can do until I get major cash flow.

Wrote 5244 words while away. Most was content for websites. Hope that they help with cash flow eventually!
 
Posted at 07/02/2019 02:32:30 UTC 0 comments
 

2019 plans, new years eve

 
I think that I did fuck all since my last blog entry. Happy 2019 or fuck 2019 depending on your mood. My goals are to continue developing SEO analysis and niche research software and make a fuck ton of money with the results. The first phase is completed but need to improve it and finish the niche research system. I expect this to be ready in a month. I need to spend less time programming and more creating content sites, this is not going terribly well but hopefully I can do this in March. I need computer upgrades, and I want a disco light system for my room eventually. Well that and a wall TV. I was just given a TV and I grateful for that but I have a vision of a few screens me around plus a wall TV, you have to work towards something, right? I'm crap at making money but need to change it this year. I say that every year but late last year I acquired some premium SEO courses and education. Hopefully I can put these to good use and get some capital to invest. I hopefully have just about finished an eye tracking system. It's not the system I originally wanted but will hopefully do for now. I also want to launch Windows programs and do more marketing of my web products. I want to launch a (better) clothing website with funny T shirts. Hopefully I'll get around to launching a music site this year too. I wanted a production company but that will have to wait until capital starts flowing in, whenever the fuck that is. I am crap with making money because I focus on building many types of software instead of getting things out to the world but the SEO software will help me do that. Oh I went out on new years. Fucking chair malfunctioned. This head gear is a piece of shit, needs replacing. First bar I went to it was completely dead in the dance area, everybody was in the smoking area. So went to Mickey Finns. Then went to Rock Pool which was more to my and/or I was piss drunk because I enjoyed it much more. I really don't like bars with cover bands. I find that boring. It's always the same songs that you hear every time.
 
Posted at 23/01/2019 02:15:46 UTC 0 comments
 

Catherine Tate, Meeting, Shania Twain, SEO

 
I went to Catherine Tate, sometime in the past. It was a very funny show but thought that the Bovvered sketch could have been better. I also thought that the videos in between sketches were a bit shit.

Before that (or after) I went to a disability issues meeting. I like to be as productive as possible so I frequently blog when I am away from my programming computer. Problem was I was blogging about how some people don't go to disability meetings because they think that they are talk fests. I didn't notice that the person taking the meeting was reading my screen. By the way always ask before you do that! If you don't it's your problem as far as I am concerned. Luckily he thought that what I was writing was interesting and shared it with the group. As far as the meeting itself, honestly I don't consider spending time on the history of the New Zealand Disability Strategy a productive use of time. I also question the usefulness of discussing things at a table and leaving 90% of what's discussed there without any action. Well OK, that is not really useful. Sorry! Maybe come up with a different model for meetings.

Tuesday I went to Auckland to see Shania Twain, the concert was Wednesday, I didn't want to come early but it worked out great.

Concert was pretty good. First act was OK. He tried to be funny, keyword tried. People should pay me to write jokes. Shania had good effects.

Thursday I am going home. Probably will post this today.

My move towards doing more SEO is progressing. I am helping top SEOs and in exchange I get to learn from them. So that is cool. Trouble is I do too much programming to focus on ranking stuff in search engines. I'll cut back programming next year and try to focus more on ranking sites. Apparently small sites still work under specific conditions so maybe I will invest in those plus some bigger ones after my own SEO software is running.

90% of the SEO industry really doesn't know what the fuck they're doing. They either build shitty backlinks or think backlinks are the devil. You can rank sites without backlinks but you can do it more effectively with backlinks. I'm not calling people in the Good Content Club idiots, but I think that there are more efficient ways of ranking sites. If some of them make money by ranking the specific types of websites that perform under those conditions, good for them. Some SEOs don't know basic terms for fuck sakes and think that SEO is different than CRO, last decade that may have been correct but that is just an utterly delusional attitude at this point. This industry is full of complete idiots. It's like working in economics or politics!

If you do SEO for me and do shitty backlinks I'll fire you. You can fuck off and do that for people who don't have a clue about SEO. In my opinion shitty backlinks are not entirely worthless depending on the niche but could get your website flagged for review and don't have as much power as high quality backlinks. If people are going to work for me I expect my instructions followed to the letter.
 
Posted at 20/12/2018 04:56:54 UTC 0 comments
 

Dunedin, Taylor Swift,, Sleeping

 
A few weeks ago I went to Dunedin. I don't particularly like going to small towns but many of the things I attended I enjoyed.

Apparently comedians are meant to enjoy going to small towns. I need high buildings and a large population for a city to be enjoyable. That part of comedy wasn't going to sync with me. Random rant about comedy over. Since leaving stand up comedy I have learned some people perform to make themselves feel better. I however like being cynical. It's the same reason that some people constantly post positive crap on Facebook, they're just trying to cheer themselves up. I am very happy being bitter and don't need to pretend to be something I not. The world is beyond fucked.

Thursday I went to Auckland. The trip pretty much sucked apart from seeing Taylor Swift. It was good to spend more time on business blogs though.

Friday was the concert and it was surprisingly fucking awesome. All three performers were good. (CharliXCX and Broods also performed, though mostly couldn't understand a word the second band said) I particularly liked the light show from Taylor Swift which included lights on people's arm band syncing to the music, it looked awesome.

Replaced my third coffee of the day with hot chocolate, now I don't get insomnia as much even after typing for 6-8 hours. Though spent at least two hours listening to music before bed. Maybe I should test that volume of typing with one hour of music time but probably won't be soon.
 
Posted at 12/11/2018 02:45:14 UTC 0 comments
 

Rants, SEO and Cher

 
Yes my monthly blog is late, I don't care. I have better things to do than to write about my life most weeks. Shock horror I'm not a narcissist that takes every opportunity to write about himself. You are lucky I bother to post crap on Facebook, or unlucky if you dislike my crap.

My friend requests are back to public. I have hidden my gender and display public "interested in men" to see if I can attract male spam bots. So far, nothing. I suppose that is a better consequence of hiding my gender from public but does say that blackhats have shitty algorthms that do not account for gays.

Conclusion: Received a friend request from a female bot, my theory didn't work. If they get too annoying I'm restricting friend requests again.

Speaking of blackhats. I have decided to focus more on SEO. (search engine optimization) I am not going blackhat but I am beginning to see blackhat SEO as a way to trick Google, experimenting more seems like a fun challenge and I'll probably dabble with it from time to time. I won't do anything illegal. However experimenting is worthwhile, I am just being a computer scientist. I don't really care about what hat I am wearing as long as I don't break any laws.

Most of my stuff will continue to be whitehat. Blackhat stuff is mostly useful for turn and burn stuff which I do not do. However recently I discovered evidence based SEO and that's interesting to me. If I can earn money with these experiments that's also good. I prefer long term assets but turn and burn could be useful for experiments. Just call me a mad computer scientist.

I am also creating SEO tools which I expect to use in a few months.

Last Wednesday I went to Sydney. Had some Jack Daniels samples at Duty Free, because I could. Sydney took a long time to get my wheelchair. Turns out we booked a non wheelchair friendly place, regulations in Australia must be crap. Apparently I had to be upgraded to the Deluxe room. If this is the Deluxe room I would hate to see what their regular rooms look like.

Thursday was the Cher concert. She gets a C for too many Costume Changes. I didn't like the way she performed Strong Enough. She didn't perform some of the songs I liked like You Haven't Seen The Last Of Me and This Is A Song For The Lonely. Definitely a C. Just call me a concert snob. I did stand far for almost the entire time though with my stand up wheelchair.

Friday I am spending most of the day writing blogs.

Saturday I am going home.

On the planes I blogged and watched Westside. The scheduling fucked up and my PVR didn't record half the episodes so it was good to watch it. TV selection otherwise has gone downhill.

Also it's totally fucking stupid having Antarctic scenery on the screens in our NEW ZEALAND national airline. What the fuck?

I probably should make more of a effort to have Grindr when I go to Australia.
 
Posted at 21/10/2018 03:37:40 UTC 0 comments
 

Pink, Bob Dylan, Concert, Business, Idea

 
It is Wednesday before I post this. I lead an exciting life. Just had some meetings since last time I blogged then going to a Pink concert tonight, second time seeing her. In Auckland. The flight attendant said that he knew how important my computer was to me. I am glad that I have a reputation as a computer geek. That wasn't sarcasm. I am a proud nerd.

Also saw Bob Dylan in Christchurch. My life is exciting comment seems less sarcastic now. For most of the show I couldn't tell where he was. It could have done with some screens. The mic was at the piano and you couldn't see it.

Business wise, still pretty fucked. One site is now receiving Google traffic. I need to get Google traffic on more sites and turn them into true assets. I have started my yearly half day holidays and planning to spend some of my holiday time developing sites. I am a geek with nothing else to do! I have no interest in seeking a partner, well at least not one that requires me to actually spend time with them, beyond the bedroom. I don't currently have someone suitable. So I guess my sites can do with my spare time. Again, total geek. #sorrynotsorry why am I putting hashtags in a blog?

The Pink concert was good. I didn't enjoy her covers, she has of own music. The DJ before her was crap. First band I didn't see much of, and that was fine. Was a bitch not getting General Admission tickets. I moved by the door before her last song but she was flying around the room for it so that was probably a mistake. Sister thought that she sounded better in Sydney. It all still a great concert with awesome effects. Great trip overall.

I almost want to try how the effects would work with stand up comedy. Perhaps once I am crazy rich from websites.
 
Posted at 06/09/2018 04:05:44 UTC 0 comments
 

Projects and speaking

 
For the past two months I have worked on integrating Print-On-Demand abilities into my event listing software and ecommerce software. Nearly fucking done, took much longer than expected. I can move on soon. Next I need to conquer social media automation, SMS APIs, and advertising APIs. Code for the first two is mostly complete. I should have some great products to use and to sell. I'm a crap seller but have learned some new techniques recently, fingers crossed! Was going to take some time off in August (half days) but I am busy so I can leave it until September, right prick for my spare time projects though.

Monday I spoke at Canterbury University, I love doing speeches. I'm going to turn my speech into an article for my disability site, even though Google still seems to hate that particular site for some reason. I will still try to improve content until things start to rank. I've started doing articles for my event listing software, plus I'm doing content for another set of sites, I am playing the long game. Hmmmm I want it shorter though.

I am going to take three months to do passion projects for half days as my holidays then with any luck I'll generate some income from passion projects to justify spending part time on them.

This may be boring but I don't lead an exciting life so fuck off if you don't like my rants.

Hopefully to FINALLY put my accessibility software to practical use later this month. Apparently I should work on releasing my text to speech queuing system too as some people don't have such software.
 
Posted at 05/08/2018 04:39:35 UTC 0 comments
 
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