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Coronavirus, TTS

 
New Zealand is on lock down because of the fucking coronavirus. I thought that the virus was no big deal at first, obviously I was wrong. I regret not getting sex while I could, I could have gotten some in Sydney but my passport expired. Yes I am ranting about sex. I'm a workahollic nerd; saying at home really doesn't affect me that much as I really don't like going out anyway. Some concerts cancelled, I can't go overseas, no big deal.

Actually the most annoying thing about this fucking virus is Emails from organization asking how I am. Bitch, I am busy and don't have time for your Email. I have also gotten countless Emails from random companies about the virus. If you're not shutting down my service GO AWAY! I don't care what you're doing with your company! Fuck!

While I'm ranting I have no time for idiots. Idiots can fuck off, they're endangering people's lives with their stupid bullshit. Dumb fuckers still don't believe that this virus is that bad. You have to be a special kind of narcissistic fuckwitt to think that you know better than public health experts at this stage. Many people are just fucking stupid! Er I had two hours sleep last night so I am probably extra bitchy. Can you tell? Perhaps you can't.

I did suddenly wanted to do comedy but my gig was cancelled. Going out was probably a really bad idea, though I probably wouldn't have got it anyway. I probably sound like a dumb person on the news. That's OK, at least I know when I am hypocritical and stupid. But seriously there was only about 20 infections in New Zealand at the time, the chances of getting an infection was really really low. I still want to do drag comedy at some stage, just because it'll be fun.

Today I started going through some electronic dance music tutorials. I have been meaning to learn for years. I still have no desire to be famous, I just want to learn how to make electronic dance music, specifically trance. I'd happily DJ in a gay club with hot shirtless guys, that would be pretty cool. Perhaps I'd release music through a stage name or produce music for other artists. I wouldn't mind doing that.

What sucks is I was mainly building event listing software and now all events have been cancelled. There's no point releasing it until this fucking virus is gone.

On the bright side it's a good time to invest in event companies, airlines, or most companies really since stocks have collapsed.

I have almost finished remote text to speech software. This will allow me to transfer live text to speech files through the web so it'll be like I'm speaking to the person. I pretty much only need to test.
 
Posted at 01/04/2020 06:30:09 UTC 8 comments
 

Electric Avenue, Partying Book, Websites

 
I went to Electric Avenue festival, I got more material for my partying book. I was reminded how annoying people are. More people = more annoying people. Though I don't mind dancing with and fist bumps with cute guys. But honestly every five minutes someone would approach me, annoying. I probably have less tolerance since I'm aging, though I didn't have much to begin with. I got in the first row at the Pendulum set

My partying book is at 8,300 words. I accepted a commission based job running a network of 10 websites so I had to stop work on the book while I prepare for that. I'm basically programming automation so maintaining the websites won't take much time at all. I still plan on doing all my other projects and websites. Recently I added a website to my personal portfolio, it's another music oriented website. The network of websites I'm managing is in a niche I'm already in (not music) so hopefully with 10 additional websites I can experiment more to find out what gets the best results.

You probably don't care but it's my blog so fuck off if you don't like it.

Hopefully I'll get to back to writing my new book soon.
 
Posted at 04/03/2020 05:39:33 UTC 40 comments
 

Overseas trips, DJing, books, Will and Grace

 
I delayed this blog because I was going to Sydney and wanted to write about that. I didn't end up going because I had an expired passport. Insurance won't pay out, no surprise. They look for excuses not to pay.

I'm going to Europe in June. I have ordered a new passport so hopefully things go to plan. I was advise not to use Airpoints, which really doesn't make sense to me so I am thinking Vegas/LA next year. Trying to think of a business reason to go back to China too. Preferably after a vaccine is created.

I love creating software and I have created software to DJ, tested it out Saturday, it was barely functional, doing request didn't work, my fault for not testing requests while music was playing. I'll fix that next time. No, I'm not considering a career change, I don't like basing a career on a personal brand, because I say all kinds of crazy shit. I just like creating software. I really want to create a music mixing application and plan to start it soon. If I ever release music it'd be under a stage name, I'd rather produce for a DJ and occasionally join them on trips in the crowd, or manage a gay club. I probably don't have time to go into music professionally. However I am available to DJ for friends' parties and if a gay club offered. Yeah I'd consider doing it, if the guys there were hot LOL! I did general music on Saturday.

My next book is 80% complete. I'm inspired to write other books such as about my short time in comedy and about traveling. Perhaps I'll do one book a year. Self published, probably less professional and with more casual writing. I think this works best for me. I think that I could write a book about sex and also some erotic fiction; I'm completely serious. Though I don't read erotic fiction or any kind of novels so I need to study it. I'd release the sex books under a pen name.

Also Will and Grace is a bit shit this season because Karen has been absent for two episodes; she's the best character in the show in my opinion.
 
Posted at 19/02/2020 06:58:50 UTC 27 comments
 

Goals, Christmas, New Year

 
Did I achieve last year's goals. No. However one of my goals was to launch a concert site and while I didn't do that by I hope to have three sites loosely connected to music soon, and possibly more after so I am claiming victory.

I am still not where I want to be but some of my websites are getting big. As long as I continue to grow my portfolio of sites hopefully things will work out.

I never noticed how weird Christmas is. It's November, let's put up green shit all over the place. What's with Christmas trees? Did Jesus have one? Is cutting down all those trees even environmentally friendly? Christmas is not environmentally friendly, there's a fuck load of waste and rubbish. Giving cash reduces rubbish, just saying!

Why are people saying happy new year? It's happy new fucking decade! Stop underselling the event. Celebrating time also seems like nonsense but I don't care as long as I can get shit faced!
 
Posted at 02/01/2020 03:27:39 UTC 39 comments
 

Carly Rae Jenpsen, Festivals, Music websites

 
I went to a small town for a multi day event. I hate small towns with a passion. The accessibility is usually shit, I also don't like smaller populations. I can't stand small towns. The event was OK.

Fucking didn't get on my flight to Christchurch because it was windy in Wellington. Fuck that, they should have been more prepared. It's not like it's a rare occurrence. Windy in Wellington, happens all the time. It's rare if it's not windy. No reason why I couldn't have gotten on the flight. Fucking health and safety crap. I had to go to Auckland from Wellington then Auckland to Christchurch. Delayed by four hours. What a bastard.

I am not a fan of small towns, or Wellington, or Wellington airport. Worse airport in New Zealand!

I go to Wellington too much. It's too small of a city for me to want to go there often. I think it has beautiful buildings but I'm over constantly going there.

I was sick of going to Auckland at one stage too. When I do too much of something or see someone too often I just get sick of them. It's been like that all of my life.

I went to Carly Rae Jenpsen in Auckland, she was better than expected. Upstairs but manage to get decent enough photos by going around the side.

I am going to finally use my Airpoints to go to Amsterdam next year. I am going to some trance festivals including going to one in Sydney. I just thought why not? I have never been to a trance specific festival and it's my favourite type of genre. I like vocal trance most of all.

I am finally starting to launch music sites. Turns out my own software is buggy and I forgot to program some key features. So I am doing a lot of fixing. I haven't released it commercially yet. That's something I need to do. I plan to launch international event sites, but will get local sites up first.
 
Posted at 22/12/2019 02:58:56 UTC 7 comments
 

U2, Shawn Mendes

 
Friday I went to U2, Mt Smart Stadium staff are a bit paranoid frankly. They asked me to stop driving completely unnecessarily when I was already going somewhere. My view was fairly good from a segregated seat. I enjoyed Noel Gallagher. U2 were good.

Saturday I went to Shawn Mendes. I almost didn't go because of all of the screaming girls at these things but when U2 was playing I thought that it was more economical to go to both. I could better justify going because of economies of scale. Nobody took me to my seat and didn't know where it was so I just went on the floor up the front. I had no idea if I was supposed to be there but nobody complained. I was a bit off to the side but it wasn't crowded. Shawn saw me and gave me a peace sign, then patted me on the arm later. He came up to me twice. It was more fun than being at home. I wish I had video, but got a guitar pick, I don't know if it was Shawn's. I also forgot that I specifically wanted to be upstairs for this concert, to avoid crazy girls, sometimes my memory sucks, oh well, it worked out great!

I enjoyed Shawn's concert more because I was at the front and he came up to me, I also like collecting things from concerts.

Not having video is a fucking bitch but maybe I can look back on these blogs, and laugh at my own jokes. I say if you don't laugh at your own jokes you probably aren't funny!

Sunday I am at the airport for about four hours, just writing blogs, can't be fucked with WiFi. Was on WiFi at hotel but couldn't be bothered with Email or Facebook, that was pretty much off the grid when it comes to me, OK? Wrote most of some starter articles for a new partying product site I'm developing. Hopefully that's vague enough so fuckers don't steal my idea.
 
Posted at 11/11/2019 05:10:32 UTC 9 comments
 

Arts Access Awards, business

 
I don't know why I continue these blogs. I am busy and really can't be fucked. So talking about myself is burdensome. I am not a fucking narcissist hahaha.

Last month I hosted the Arts Access Awards; it was the best event I've hosted all year; it also was only event I hosted all year. However seriously it was a top event of my performing life, well I can't really call it a career. I totally can do corporate gigs. Not that I have any plans to do so. Performing is a skill in my back pocket in case everything goes to shit.

And everything is going to shit, I am not happy with my lack of financial success, I haven't been for the past 5 years. I am not happy that I haven't sorted eye tracking yet. I am happy with the websites I've created, I've just got to make them profitable. I still believe that I'm going in the right direction. However I don't feel successful, at least financially.

I have done so much in my life like performing overseas, performing in Parliament, wrote a book series, done speeches in Universities, appeared in a music video, went to like a billion concerts, danced with Anastacia. I've done things I don't wish to take credit for, I know you're shocked. I've made thousands of people laughed. Have I lead a great life? Sure. Do I feel successful? Not really. However life can always be tweaked. I believe that I can be successful.

I am successful in some ways. However I can do better. Some of my problems are self inflicted.
 
Posted at 03/10/2019 21:58:21 UTC 9 comments
 

Whining comedians

 
This month I'm randomly ranting about comedians. I am sick of their whining about political correctness. Good comedy in my opinion courage but comedians whining about people not liking their jokes is not courageous, it's pathetic.

Every industry has to adapt, why would comedy be different? You cannot make fun of the same minorities you could 20 years ago, and that's probably a good thing. If you do and you get booed or blacklisted that's on you.

Smart comedians will just adapt.

I'm not the biggest fan of gate keepers and some probably go too far. If you don't want to deal with them you could put on your own shows and/or start your own open mic.

Take the initiative instead of whining. If there's a market for your stuff you will succeed if not sorry people don't have to embrace your humour.

If you make fun of the powerful this wouldn't be so much of a problem. If you do the opposite then yes you're going to get shit.

You CAN control your jokes, you CANNOT control people's reaction to them. Instead of complaining endlessly why don't you modify your act?

If you're a rich comedian and complain, fuck you! I give no shits about you. You have enough of a following to do your own thing.

I have millions of dollars and annoyed people don't like my joke about transgendered people. Yes, fuck you!

If you're a poorer comedian, you just have to deal with modern society's expectations. It doesn't have to be a negative, try new things, refine. Perhaps you'll hit gold!

If you really don't like today's culture by all means find a way to develop your own following. I don't care.

Comedy regularly offends people and that's ok. Comedians should push boundaries but there's possible risks of doing so.

If you want a safe space to tell jokes, there's nothing stopping you from creating one.

Also some may consider me a whining (ex) comedian about other things, oh well. You're right and I don't care. However rich comedians complaining about audiences does genuinely fuck me off!
 
Posted at 04/09/2019 04:00:30 UTC 10 comments
 

Wellington, content sites, Rich rant

 
Went to Wellington for a meeting. Stayed at a hotel with crappy access. There was steps to the bathroom. Serious what the fuck? Meeting was scheduled when an international rugby match was on, that was probably a bad idea.

I have noticed that I like building content sites more than programming. I always seem to work extra on my content days. I am focusing on 3-4 industries, which frankly is a cut-down for me.

To people who insist you have to do one thing to be successful.
Steve Jobs wasn't really successful until he did iPhones, iTunes. He didn't just do Macs.
Amazon didn't make a profit for years and years and the company now has defense contracts, cloud services, wholefoods. It is not just one thing.
Richard Branson had multiple things.
Rich people are also rich largely because they're tight asses and do a lot of investing. Many rich people are complete cheapskates. I know this from YouTube videos and dating a guy from a wealthy family. It's not really to do with doing one thing and getting good at it, it's more financial strategy. There's a reason why half of lottery winners go broke.

Even if most rich people do one thing, they have other investments too.

While I'm not great at sticking to one thing, I've done some stuff for years and sooner or later some will be successful. I've launched about 6 websites this year and a few more are planned. This is different from previous years where I just did programming. I am getting more sites up and am feeling great. Some sites are small or can be semi automated.
 
Posted at 01/08/2019 04:33:05 UTC 8 comments
 

Disturbed

 
Honestly I feel disturbed, and not in a good way. Recently I learned that people with disabilities are denied medical care that others get. I read about how beds are inaccessible in Australia so people don't women don't get appropriate examinations. Apparently denial of care happens in NZ but people and articles aren't good at providing credible sources so I have to do more research into this. If you have particular examples please message me. I have discovered other disturbing facts about disability and the medical industry but I don't really feel like typing horrible events here, at least about other people.

This makes me wonder if am I a bad disability advocate. I often wonder the same thing about gay rights, considering I do more disability work.

Perhaps blaming yourself for systematic issues is a bit narcissistic. I also don't like to refer to myself as a advocate frankly. However it's clear to me that there's critical issues that need resolving and people need to do more and this includes myself.

However I am also happy continuing doing other stuff. It is about balance though, that balance is out of sync currently.

I do view myself best suited to providing strategic advice and delegation. Mainly because I like to focus on multiple things at once. I'll also try to create more disability content for my network of sites.

Perhaps this is self serving however I truly believe that growing a strong network would help the entity advocate in the long run.

NGOs are apolitical mostly and in my opinion they screw themselves by doing this. Political organizations also frankly play it too safe.

I believe that freeing yourself of maximum restrictions is the only way to do anything. Sometimes this means freeing yourselves from the group think in the disability community. However other times it's worthwhile to listen, research and change your mind.
 
Posted at 03/07/2019 04:17:19 UTC 6 comments
 
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