Beyond Fucked


Partying websites, disability projects, music videos, gig, access needs

I launched my EDM interview website. I now own 3 websites in the partying space. 3 more planned. Plus I sell music shirts and a partying book. This isn't my biggest network. Definitely in the top three.

I am going to expand my disability website network too. To my surprise it appears some people have trouble reading websites and they need a font size selection feature. It's baffling that this isn't embedded in phones. But oh well, I can release a free tool and hopefully get free promotion for my network. Why not? I am actually helping people!

I also plan to release completely ridiculous music and music videos. I plan to work with people to do this.

I went to an EDM gig. Um there were two really annoying people there, and I was too sober. Otherwise it was good.

According to some stupid people: people with disabilities are to be called people with access needs. Could these people please fuck off and actually do something useful and not change the fucking terms every three minutes. You're not helping people, all you're doing is verbally farting and blowing it everywhere so people can't focus on actual issues. Me? I build accessibility tools. You? You change language and people with disabilities hate the fucking stupid language you make up anyway. Fuck you, you're useless.
Posted at 02/06/2021 09:37:45 UTC 26 comments

Dum and bass, Wellington, rant, cripples, phone

I went to a drum and bass gig. People are fucking weird. Here's a tip: if you ask me every two minutes if I am having fun, I am probably not as you're being fucking annoying. Someone called me his hero, I thought get a grip!

Something always bad happens when I go to Wellington. This time on a day trip I couldn't land back in Christchurch so I had to stay overnight. I couldn't get a taxi to the accommodation so I had to travel via foot path. It was a Saturday night. People in wheelchairs should be able to get taxis on a Saturday night. We're second class citizens.

People say "It's good to see you out and about". Well fuck you! Perhaps more people with disabilities would go out if society wasn't so fucking inaccessible! Buildings are inaccessible, taxis are impossible to get, clubbing assistants are flakey. Oh, but people say I am an inspiration. Please fuck off!

On another note I've been meaning to fix up so it ranks in the search engines. I have no idea when I am going to get to it. My DJ interview website should launch in a few days. Then I have a few other projects to do. Maybe I can start on in August.

I finally have a new phone after 12 years. It has shit accessibility. Maybe I can do things to improve accessibility. I can finally go on Grindr. But what is the point? On NZDating the only people wanting to have sex were undesirable. I deleted my account, waste of fucking time. I'll probably go on Grindr then delete my account a few days after.
Posted at 06/05/2021 05:41:19 UTC 47 comments

Synthphony, communication software, projects

I went to Synthphony 2020. Too much house, not enough trance. House music bores me for the most part. It was a good event though. I didn't like how "I Need A Miracle" was performed, too slow. People weren't too annoying apart from a guy who kissed the behind of the forehead. What the fuck? He obviously wasn't hot otherwise I wouldn't be complaining. Some guy called me his "hero for being here", people need to get a fucking grip.

I used my own communication software for the first time. Predictive text didn't work, hopefully I'll fix that next week. I need to sort out saving documents so I can do blogs away from home. My old device is dying but things should be running smoothly soon.

I am hoping the Artificial Intelligence company I'm involved with won't take up as much time as initially thought. My next big project will be text to video software so I can use text to easily create videos. I don't expect it to be running for six months at least. This will make it easier for me to release comedy videos. The videos will probably look like shit, but oh well that's part of the fun. Before that I plan to launch a DJ interview website, I am launching other stuff too.
Posted at 08/04/2021 23:05:06 UTC 56 comments

Projects, Electric Avenue 2021

As stated last year I joined a charity board. I also own a tiny part of a comedy club here in Christchurch. I have also accepted an unpaid position interviewing TV celebrities. I like interviewing celebrities. It's a temporary arrangement. I'll launch my own interview website in time. For now I am too busy and it's good to utilize an existing brand. I am working on launching some new low maintenance websites, the first is up.

I stopped work on my fiction books for now. Fell out of the habit of writing a little bit each night. Finding a cover model went nowhere. I'll continue the writing eventually. I did write a small production and submitted it to a studio. I did it not knowing if they accept writers. It's also not something I can discuss publicly. As for my comedy productions I'll focus on scripted comedy productions after an artificial intelligence company up. Even though I got bored of the project and currently launching some new websites. I still need to make myself available to the AI company, hopefully not for too much longer.

Oh I went to Electric Avenue. I decided it was better to go later as I don't like leaving my computer. Sad but true. Saw Benny, P Money. I didn't see Scribe, I wish that I had but I was enjoying the DnB tent too much. A woman was dancing with me, it didn't matter how much I was purposely ignoring her, she was dancing with me. Also people really need to stop fucking asking me if I am OK, it's just annoying. Unless I'm screaming just assume I'm fine. I was ment to go to another festival but I am a nerd, I really like avoiding going out if I can help it. It's a struggle to go to meetings endlessly.
Posted at 03/03/2021 07:34:10 UTC 31 comments

Projects, Music festivals, Burdens

Spending my spare time on mostly one project is really annoying. I want to do other stuff but I can't. Hopefully I can get the project up this month and move on. I need to get back to more passion projects.

In work time I have doubted the amount that I am spending developing windows accessibility software. I need the solution up soon as my hard drive on my old portable computer is dying. Maybe the first prototype will be up next month.

I have three music festivals coming up. I may wear gloves for people to fist bump, because of covid etc. A mask might be overkill but I don't know. I was fist bumping people every two minutes last time.

Nothing much is happening. I keep getting annoyed by having to answer emails and meet with people about my disability care. For fuck sake I'm a workahollic, I don't want to spend time discussing equipment etc. Having a disability is a burden, sorry but it is. It's made worse by fucking endless meetings about equipment and inaccessibility of society. Fuck sake.
Posted at 03/02/2021 08:28:52 UTC 20 comments

2020, Future, Computer, Negativity

Well 2020 sucked for me, but not solely because of covid. If it was just Covid the year would still have sucked, but not as much. Covid also had significant upsides for me, let's say I took advantage of some things and I am in a better position than I was before Covid. Not traveling sucked. I am fearful that the vaccine won't solve the problem but am holding out hope that it will. What sucked for me was some of my online accounts got shut down. The payment processor issue was my own fault; eventually I may just delegate payment processing to other people but I see no urgent need. The other account getting shut down was probably my fault too. However because of this I tried some alternative business models, it isn't working out and maybe I should quit. However I'll reconsider quitting in a few months.

I also joined a charity board and am now on the board of an artificial intelligence company, if the latter pays off I have some big plans! I'll invest half of the money though. Maybe I can invest much of the other half in a gay club and other vanity businesses. I also wrote a book this year, had fuck all sales. I'm not entirely clear if I will bother with comedy books. I am just writing erotica for now, this is kind of a hobby side business. I can't find a cover model. I am still tweaking the first manuscript. Maybe I can launch the first book in March. I am not planning to expose my pen names on personal profiles but will tell some close friends. I also plan on developing a text to video system so I can create videos with computer coding. I may do other ideas but it's not worth putting out there in case I don't do them. All the stuff I mentioned I'm definitely going to do.

Oh my computer almost died which would have been an utter fucking disaster. Nobody responded to my facebook post about it, apparently I have useless friends. I mean really! It was a fucking emergency and nobody responded. Luckily I did get help. So thanks to the guy who helped. Facebook proved again to be fucking useless.

I'm going to write more negative blog posts this year. Being negative is my source of fun. Fuck knows I can't travel any time soon, I have to do something to entertain myself. Positively is boring and many people just fake it anyway.
Posted at 06/01/2021 06:22:11 UTC 29 comments

Gig, videos, book release, trance

I performed my last gig, people were complimentary. Now I'll focus on doing comedy away from the stage. My text to image technology still needs some work. I won't start on text to video technology for a few weeks yet. The entire point of the text to video technology is so I can release computer generated comedy videos. Perhaps I can realistically start in March or something. The text to image technology took more fine tuning than I thought. I am currently using it to design merchandise, it just doesn't have all of the abilities that I need yet.

I have released The Confessions of a Partying Cripple. I expected more sales. I was going to write a few more nonfiction books, but now I don't know. I didn't expect to be a massive success but eh. I really just wanted to say "I wrote the book on disability and partying". It was the #1 new release for two categories and got into the top 10 in overall sales for one. I may have been obsessively checking the sales ranks. All these achievements and only 10 sales. It would be good stand up humor. It would be VERY easy to send BS sales to get a #1 spot and get the clout. I am too cheap to do this. All I am saying is based on this experience if you truly wanted BS best selling clout, it's really not that difficult to do. This is nothing new; some of the people on the New York Times list buy their own books. Maybe I'll continue writing nonfiction books in my spare time, starting again next year. I'm definitely not doing this for the money. I think I've only made $12US overall. I still want to do non comedic fiction under a pen name, again not for the money. I'd be utterly delusional if that was my only motivation.

I was thinking about comedic fiction books. I think YouTube videos would earn more money. I could put some of the money back into videos and produce more and better content. I envision revenue from merchandise would be another way to do this, but had fuck all sales. Hopefully things will build up everything. Satirical "make money online" videos would be a good place to start, the revenue would be higher and I want to make fun of these guru idiots selling people crap. I have the first animated video but I am waiting for my text to video software to complete it. Yes I should complete it sooner, I just can't be fucked operating video editing software.

I am probably going to get involved in one or two things offline too. I'm considering releasing trance mixes too. I do a lot of stuff because I really don't have a life, or partner, and I don't really like people hahaha.
Posted at 30/11/2020 21:26:40 UTC 22 comments

Comedy, Projects, Humanity

I performed twice virtually last month, enjoyed the first show more. I liked performing virtually. It just takes a while to get used to the two second delay in laughs. I don't like traveling in vans, it's an unproductive waste of time. Not having to do that was good. Oddly I'm more tolerant of traveling to other cities for concerts, which I can't do now due to fucking Coronavirus. I have a gig later in the month. Then in all likelihood I'll discontinue stand up comedy but still work on comedy projects. I actually now own a stake in an upcoming company, so I may have to seriously reduce projects going forward.

It is an Artificial Intelligence company. All I will say is there's capital behind it. Nothing major and it's been mostly spent on the technology. I hope this works out. I still want to do hobby projects such as videos, books, certain websites. I'll also do merchandise designing and some programming projects. I'll see what I can outsource/(semi) automate in my network. I'll probably get writers for my content websites.

Also, I'm kind of done with the human race right now due to a moronic referendum result and the fact that 45% of Americans would still elect a moronic crazy person. I don't like humans, and I'm not going to spend my time entertaining them, OK? I'll still release blogs, videos, books and merchandise. I just don't like humanity enough to build a career being around people, never have!
Posted at 07/11/2020 06:15:19 UTC 22 comments

Tto do lists, comedy, shirts, books

So I completed a few things on my to do list. I did comedy in drag, that set went better than expected. Unfortunately it wasn't videoed so maybe I'll perform again in October. Actually I'm performing another set virtually in October. However nothing has changed. I am a computer geek, I prefer it this way. I did do another set in September, people enjoyed it. The other thing on my to do list was designing T shirts. I have done like 46 in two months. Apparently you need hundreds to earn real money. Hopefully I can get better at graphics too, I am learning some new skills.

I am doing it quicker and quicker. My goal was two a week. I have done 16this past week. So will continue this and see where it leads. My strategy is basically throwing shit against the wall and seeing what sticks and

I am about a month behind on book publishing. Not exactly my fault as I am trying to fix a corrupted volume 2 manuscript. Volume 3 wasn't corrupted but maybe I'll do a few days of editing. If I do my partying book will be delayed until November or December. Fuck!

Started my first very short fiction which will be released under a pen name. My other fiction books in the particular genre will be 2-3 times as long. I am doing a very short book to start. If I can tear myself away from the genre I'm doing I'll do short comedy fiction next year.

Not sure if I want to do political comedy fiction. Orange Buffoon is already ridiculous enough. I have no idea what I want to do. Maybe a newsroom spoof in the Buffoon era, that might be fun. I know that I just said no I don't want to do political comedy, but the characters would react to real life events. I imagine that I'll do a book following a candidate but for now the newsroom idea sounds great.
Posted at 01/10/2020 06:38:12 UTC 29 comments

Books, Comedy, Products

Had another set back today but oh well. I am finally republishing my books and my partying book will be selling either this month or next.

I am doing drag comedy at Good Times Comedy Club September 14th, just because I can. No I am not returning to professional comedy, it's just something to do.

I was at a party the other week and people were still wanting me to do comedy. Um I am not a people pleaser. I did try do do a set and the fucking text to speech wouldn't work, no idea why. So people were reading my set on my computer and laughing.

I am thinking of doing disability related videos to promote my books. Problem is I don't like personal brands. I need to find a balance of not getting too high profile but if still promoting my books.

I am too busy to work on animated videos however I expect to work on all sorts of videos after my partying book is published. I may do some second editions but I want to do some fiction first.

Random rant: So many people fake positivity. I wish people can be honest about how miserable they are. I know people fake happiness for therapeutic reasons but I think it's OK to say life is fucked up, because it is. I don't think positivity is productive. I think that people that force themselves to be positive are less likely to make their life better. Although sometimes you can't. I just find it all so fake. Negativity doesn't have to be a bad thing; You can turn it into humour and make people laugh. At least I can, if you get my humour, and if you don't, sucks to be you I guess.

I like making myself laugh and if I make other people laugh, that's a bonus. On the other hand books, shirts and videos will be mainly for other people. They're also assets I'm building. All of my websites are assets too, it'd help if they were cash flowing assets Problem with shirts is I'm a shitty marketer and a crap designer, oh well. I am hoping that my designs will get better and eventually I'll have enough decent ones for a bit of income.
Posted at 02/09/2020 06:22:35 UTC 14 comments